Gifts · Wonder

when a gift doesn’t feel like a gift… until it’s gone…

The gift came… unexpected… unwanted… about a year ago…

The kitten of a stray mamma…
who gave birth… unseen…
under the shrubs…

The crew wreaked havoc in our lives for a time…
after much trauma… of kittens… cats… and us…
one kitten remained…
Omega…

A gift I didn’t want…
but unable to traumatize him anymore…
he became an inside cat…
our first one in over twenty years…

Just this week…
as he lay next to me…
I wondered at his soft fur…
green eyes…
loud purr…
and thought about his Creator…

A God who gives gifts…
even in the form of domestic animals…
to care for… enjoy… wonder at…

But now he’s gone…

It’s been more than 48 hours since he went out…
he has not returned as usual…

Each hour… makes it less likely he will…
and I have to admit…
it makes me sad…

Wondering…
what happened…?
did he suffer…? or still suffering…?

And I wonder at the loss…
and how a gift that didn’t feel like a gift…
when suddenly gone…
is seen…
for the gift he was…

“…The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away;
blessed be the name of the Lord.”
Job 1:21 ESV

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