Blessed · Children · Father God · struggle

blessed with a good… good… Father…

After a rough yesterday… a blessed today…
blessed with a good… good… Father…
the chorus of the song… my waking thought…

You’re a good good Father
It’s who You are
It’s who You are
It’s who You are

And I’m loved by You
It’s who I am
It’s who I am
It’s who I am

Yesterday’s struggle with words…
anxiety…
fear of failure…
temptation to quit…
grumpiness…
made me wonder what He thought of me…
Was I a disappointment…? a dis-grace…? 
to what He’s taught me…? to what I’m teaching…?
Then today… a better day…
a day of trust… peace… space even…
to sit with the writing sister…
with no need to talk of Sister Talk
And I saw it… His perspective as a parent… far different than ours…
My frustration comes from not knowing how long my children will struggle… not knowing how long it will take them to learn… to grow… to be who He calls them to be…
But God… from His eternal perspective…
saw yesterday… while He also saw today…
and knew He would wake me with song…
He does not consider how He feels about me based on how I act today… He already sees what I will become in Jesus… what I will grow into…
He loves… 
while He watches His children struggle…
growing into new graces…
and knows… tomorrow will be different…
And Yes… I know tomorrow will be different…
and my struggles are not over…
but I know… I have a good… good… Father…
and I am loved… loved… loved… by Him…
not because of where I am spiritually… or what I do…
but because of who I am in Him…
There’s a freedom here…
a freedom from fear of disappointing…
the freedom of receiving His love…
even when I doubt and stand on the brink of tantrum…
It even gives me freedom with my own children…
to give space… and time…
for Him to work in them…
Blessed with a good… good… Father…
Amen… Amen…

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