Fear

exercising freedom…

With my word for the year…
Freedom…
changes have already begun…

Some exercises of freedom subtle…
changing the inside…
my heart… thought life…
moving toward this word…

Other exercises of freedom…
include changes in ministry pursuit…
and attitudes toward serving…

But today… exercising freedom…
involved letting go…
freeing up space…
filling up trash cans…

Recently I’ve felt led to free myself from holding on to past journals… past Bible study books and notes… past ministry guides… outlines… and more notes…

Today… I piled thousands of sheets of paper…
both computer paper and spiral notebooks…
into boxes for recycling… or trash…

The freedom exercised…?

Releasing the fear that He will not provide what I need when I need it…

The irony…?

Every sheet of paper… every note… every outline… evidence of His past provision…

He will provide the words… the outlines… the plans… for what comes next…
I do not need to hold on to His words that I’ve recorded and written down…
I do not need to be trapped by the clutter… or fear… that He will not provide…

Today… I exercise my freedom to trust Him to supply the wisdom… word… and plan… for whatever He calls me to…

…the Counselor, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send
in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you
of everything I have said to you.
John 14:26
I now see… He not only reminds of what He’s said in Scripture… but also what He has revealed for the service… and ministry… He inspires… and empowers…
The Spirit will bring to remembrance… EVERYTHING… He has said to me…
Amen… and bring on another box…
[Another irony… the purge begun today… brought on by a search for past ministry notes… Hmmm… you think He’s trying to tell me something…? :/ ]

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