Anxiety · Reminded · Unbelief

feeling small…

Last night’s surrender… led to a not so mild meltdown…

The stretching thin… feeling more like a breaking point…

Grumpy… edgy… crotchety (as my mom would have said)…
I went about doing things I could do…
sweeping…
mopping…
cooking…
taking out garbage…

In the midst of all… He threw out reminders…

The stretching thin… to be a thin place… where I draw strength from Him… not seek more from within…

During the sweeping of dirt… and complaints about those who drug it in… He reminds… my loved ones… me… are made of the same stuff…

As a father shows compassion to his children,
so the Lord shows compassion to those who fear him.
For he knows our frame; he remembers that we are dust.
Psalm 103:13-14 ESV
Taking out the trash under the broad expanse of stars… I’m reminded… He is big enough… to handle what He has called me to do… in His time… not mine…
…therefore thus says the Lord God,
“Behold, I am the one who has laid as a foundation in Zion,
a stone, a tested stone, a precious cornerstone, of a sure foundation:
‘Whoever believes will not be in haste.’ …”
Isaiah 28:16 ESV
My frantic… panicked… haste… a lack of trust in Him… 
Unbelief raising its ugly head…
Under the stars… tears welled…
repentance returned…
and I became small…
But for you, O Lord, do I wait;
it is you, O Lord my God, who will answer.
Psalm 38:15 ESV

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